i dont know why im crying.. baha.

well ive did all i could.
i tried to help , i didd.

its not my fault hes an arrogant ass.
i just feel really really bad.

he just makes me really mad bc
he doesnt realize what he has.

so many people,
[including me]
would give anything
to have someone feel that way
about them, and hes treating it
like nothing. because hes an ass.

so fuckk him. i tried, and
ill probably keep trying to help.
even though no one will care,
because the person im trying to
help is too wrapped up in him
to notice that im trying at all.

this is probably really confusing
if you dont know who im talking
about, but fuckit, its my blog.

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alsoo; i realized i fucked up.
majorlllllllly. idk how i was so stupid.

a really really really long time ago.
i let someone go i shouldnt have.
its been my biggest regret...

i was too greedy i guess,
i was looking for something
that i didnt realize i had,
because im so fucking blind.

[ stfu rye im not going blind literally. ]

but its obviously too late,
not only has it been forever.
but i fucked up every chance.

i fixed my problems with everyone except for him,
but i cant even get the chance because hes gone
and disappeared agaaainnn. UGH.

im not looking for anything special,
i just wanna be friends again.
f r i e n d s.

i lovee how your one of the only people
that i can have a real conversation with.
how you have your own opinions and
your not afraid to tell them to anyone.
how your an amazing person. how you
can be soo funny but serious when you
need to be. how your seriously the most
modest person in the world. your englishy,
bahaa. how my heart would speed up every
time you said something, even if it was the
most pointless thing ever. and it still does.
and i really need tostop this before it gets
overly stalkerish... 0.o

im taking a huge risk here and saying that:

i miss you, gerard vengar.

baha i hope i spelled that right..
if i didnt , thats embarassing..
this little section ingeneral is embarassing DX
its a good thing hell never read this then :}
ima shut up now.

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OKAY.

im done with this lol;
ive embarassed myself enoughh.
and im gonna hit publish before i change my minddd.

here i go.